Hello, again. Been some time since I posted on here. Been busy writing and of course, housework here. Things could be better though. A lot better. Keep wishing I had my son with me and a place for he and I to live together. I keep hoping I find the right guy one day, but uh... That search could last a life time. Or not. I don't really know, but I know to be more careful and not fall for that whole "forever love, soul mates" shit.
Been told that a lot and I guess I'm either dumb for falling for it or I just never learn my lesson. I mean, I believed that crap with my last relationship and look what happened: Divorced, back at my mom's house, and can't have or see my little boy.
Been trying to figure out the true reason why he divorced me, it's been a weight on me since the divorce and it's frustrating. Tried asking him but no response. Maybe he did lose interest in me, or had met someone else. Maybe I was "overbearing"? Probably not the case. His reason was that I was too perfect and I need to find someone else who I'll be perfect enough for and be happier.
I don't know, I keep beating myself up over it all.
Have been asked out by guys, most throw out that they make a lot of money. To get this straight though, I'm not interested in money. Sure I'm a single mother actually in need of money, but doesn't mean I want a guy to treat me like a damn... Whatever it's called. I would prefer to make my own money. I know I can do it. I prefer a personality. Someone I can laugh at jokes with, even the crude kind. Or wouldn't judge me on what I think is funny. With my last relationship, i couldn't watch This Is The End with him. He accused me of checking out the actors... Ridiculous. I'm just like other women. Of course I'm gonna find certain actors attractive! Hell, he had his actresses he was into, but once i try watching a movie that has a favorite actor, he treated it like i was cheating on him.
Seriously, do other relationships have problems like that too? Serious question right there.
Anyways, yeah, a sense of humor is the key to me. Loyalty too. Key essentials that women look for in a guy. Or it's just me. I like to laugh. Music too. I love music. 98% of my time, I have headphones on and listening to my Xbox Music on shuffle.
I don't know, I like a lot of things: Music, writing, drawing, playing musical instruments, cats/kittens, knitting, singing, dancing. Of course my love for coffee, horror/comedy films, and video games. Enjoy baking things. Sounds a bit old fashioned. Of course if you follow my Twitter, I already shared before that I like to collect things too: Old pennies (oldest I have is from 1904), pop tabs, unique rocks, and Canadian coins.
Sorry for talking too much. I'm passing the time and awaiting the coffee. Yes, we FINALLY got coffee.
Either way, I hope things turn around finally.
Love
Ariana
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