Late Night Check Up

Hey everyone. Been busy, and trying to do more writing, but been hitting writers block like crazy. Celebrated my older brother's birthday yesterday (since it's after midnight), got out of the house. Even though it was to the store, I still cherished it haha. Ran through WalMart for a last minute product. Glad it wasn't as crowded as larger WalMart's, almost ran into a cart.
Had a chance for an interview with a modeling and acting agency but missed the interview. Wasn't too happy with that, but hey, better luck next time, right? Anyways, been offered a lot of dates lately, but hesitant. I really want to be careful, had four failed relationships, don't want a fifth failed relationship.
... Forgot what I was going to add to that. But, yeah. Hesitant. Oh, also realized this coming week will be the same time last year when my ex husband told me he was divorcing me. September 1st will be the one year mark, seeing how I was advised twice to wait a year before dating. But, instead of that, I also plan on improving myself and my life.
Other than that, not much else. A guy got mad at me cause I turned him down, then proceeded with telling others that I only want to use guys for money. Completely false. I've turned down at least six or more guys when they offered money or to spoil me. If I want money then I'll earn it myself... Not having any luck with that right now, but I still won't stoop that low. Another guy called me a dumb bitch also because I turned him down.
I turned down the first guy because he asked me to screw him and his friend. I turned down the second guy because he was more like a friend.
Just like any other human being in the world, I just want to find the one. A sense of humor is the key to my heart. Loyalty, caring, protective. Dark hair, someone who I can enjoy horror and comedy movies with. Someone I can enjoy listening to Linkin Park with, rock and metal music. Someone that will accept my son. Someone that won't verbally abuse me or threaten me. Someone that knows they want marriage and kids in the future. And doesn't mind playing video games either.
In the state of Oklahoma, that is a bit hard to find, and can't find someone out of state or country cause apparently guys don't want a long distance relationship. I'm pretty much stuck.
Also, been thinking of seeing how it works if I do a video post. Think that could work? Honestly, never done a video post before. Doesn't hurt to try though.
That's about all right now that has gone down.

Love
Ariana