Another Late Night Post

Hey everyone. Still awake, I'm supposed to get up early tomorrow, but everyone is still awake and technically my "bed" is the couch. And no one is showing signs of going to bed anytime soon. I got shot in the mouth by a plastic arrow. I was checking my phone, and my sister decided to fire a plastic arrow at me, thinking it wouldn't hurt... It hurt. It hurt like hell. Mouth went numb and a tooth hurts a little bit, bled for a short moment then stopped; but my upper lip feels numb and possibly bruised. A bit swollen. She threatened to do it again.
I have such a loving family, huh. Earlier my niece hit me a few times for accidentally knocking her strawberry shake over. In my defense, she left it sitting on the couch beside a couple of bags that I was going to put up. Could be worse. My sister might shoot the bb gun at me for fun. Sometimes, I assume she doesn't like me much. Purposely trying to injure me every week.
Listening to The Little Things Give You Away. Linkin Park soldier. Their music makes me feel better (I discussed this in the last post).
You can now find me on Linkin Park's site now. I used to be on there but deactivated my account, my husband at the time didn't like me being on their site. Oddly, he acted jealous of the band. Couldn't even hang up my poster.
But, was doing an updated post. Here's hoping that my upper lip doesn't bruise and my tooth stops hurting. My sister is lucky I don't have a bad temper like my brothers. As my little brother said before, I'd likely snap one day. Haha. Goodnight everyone.

Love
Ariana

Late Night Post

Hello everyone. Feeling great, no longer sick, short from allergies. Been listening to my Linkin Park cds lately. Anyone else a Linkin Park fan? I am. Been a fan since Hybrid Theory. I was a kid and I remember telling my oldest brother (deceased) I wanted Linkin Park's cd for Christmas. I was happy, I still have the cd to this day... It actually has outlasted my other cds from over the years. I remember saving the money up too to join the LPU, but the money was stolen. Still haven't had a chance to join, but I still hope to one day. At one point in my teens, I started listening to other bands and that resorted in depression and phases. During my second, terrible relationship, I finally got Minutes To Midnight. Took me out of that phase and depression. Strength to let go of that guy. Same with my third ex.
Their music has always had a profound impact on my life. I'm more cheerful and feel better about myself and everything. Even when I was pregnant, the first time I felt my son kick was to Burn It Down.
I remember being younger, I actually used to have a crush on Rob Bourdon. Brad Delson... Mike Shinoda. (my sister had a crush on Chester Bennington). But, now that I'm older, I developed respect for the band (no longer crushes) because of the amazing work they do: Charities, Music For Relief, their work. They're good influences for others, hopefully my son can learn from their influences. Hell, he's already influenced by their music. Almost three and he loves to play the drums and guitar. So, a thank you to my all time favorite band, Linkin Park, for the influences in my life. Their music for taking me out of depression and self hate. I plan to donate to Music For Relief in the (near) future. I hope.
Can't wait for heir new album.

Love
Ariana (Linkin Park fan since Hybrid Theory)

Passing The Time

Hello everyone. Been sick the last few days, still weak, but bouncing back. Today I spent time making fleece throw blankets for my son and niece. Then worked on a quilt. I actually started the quilt back when I was married cause at the time my husband (ex husband) and I were wanting five kids. But, after we had our son, he suddenly changed his mind and divorced me later. Anyways, I was making the quilt incase I ever had a little baby girl. But since the divorce, I stopped working on it, now I'm back to the quilt because I can always give the quilt to one of my siblings if they ever have a daughter. If not, then it can be a gift for someone else later in life.
But now, I'm working on a fantasy book, likely a short book. Writing it for my son. It'll be something I can read to him when I do have him here at times. Hopefully he will like the book. It'll have a mystical setting about it. Taking a break from writing currently because it began to remind me of the times he and I played outside. On Mother's Day, he gave me a rock he found. I still have it. We also found ladybugs and caught grasshoppers together.
Think it's the depression that's making me feel sick, the further it goes, the worst I feel. Still keeping hope! But unfortunately, I practically missed out on his whole two year. In January he'll be three and his birthday is on a day I can't get him.
Sucks.

Love
Ariana