I have been a fan since the start like I said before. I remember hearing One Step Closer on 100.5 The Katt and asking my mom if I could have the cd for Christmas. Months later, I got it along with a cd player. I remember listening to their music when I got sick from my older sister's cooking, when a hornet stung me on the wrist, when I injured/tore up my right leg. For a bit in my teens, I checked out other bands. Not many made me feel better like Linkin Park's music. If anything I got depressed. After my first breakup that was verbally abusive, and when he tried to break into the house late one night, I was afraid to be alone, to go anywhere or answer my phone that I got a new one. Linkin Park's music helped me get over that debilitating fear my first ex left. I listened to their music after finding out my second ex was cheating on me (found out on Valentine's day of all days). After my third breakup, Roads Untraveled helped me through the process. With my ex husband, I couldn't really listen to their music or My Chemical Romance due to him complaining or jealousy. Yeah, he got jealous over those bands, Linkin Park more so. I couldn't listen to their music or hang up my poster (think he threw it away after the divorce). And we got in an argument that I couldn't have any Linkin Park songs play at the wedding unless he could have Ariana Grande's music play... I chose The Little Things Give You Away. He also accused me of wanting to name our son after the drummer since I was wanting to name him Robert. Instead he picked the name Michael, he didn't take into account that's Mike Shinoda's name. After the divorce and custody arrangement, I was depressed and cried every day cause I didn't get to keep my son. I wanted to give up so many times, but once again, Linkin Park's music helped me through everything. Even with writing. The SGC characters (if you read When It Ends) I had based on them, kinda like a dedication thanks for influencing my life. The news about Chester was like a hit to the gut. My sister told me I was in denial for the first 30 minutes. I couldn't listen to their music for awhile cause I wouldn't feel right or sick. Found One More Light at the store, took me a couple of days to listen to it and then there was comfort. Hearing about his death was like losing a family member. I'm sure other fans know what I mean. It makes you sad and lonely, but now, listening to the music gives more meaning, more to everything and makes me think of how his singing comforted me. They were the reason I wanted to get into music. Perhaps they are the reason why I never got into drinking, partying, drugs, or smoking. I wish I could have gone to a concert and taken my son when he was alive. Instead, I bought a Linkin Park shirt for him.
Chester Bennington will be missed by all who he meant a lot to. And I'm proud to be part of the Linkin Park Family and to have been influenced by his vocals and humor.
Love
Ariana
Chester Bennington will be missed by all who he meant a lot to. And I'm proud to be part of the Linkin Park Family and to have been influenced by his vocals and humor.
Love
Ariana
